I was always afraid of being different from other people. My life was ruled by thoughts like, "What will people think of me? What if people are watching me right now?"

After I started going to church, I felt really burdened by the idea of evangelizing to other people, and it made my self-consciousness and fear of people even worse. During a conversation, if a topic related to Christianity came up, I got self-conscious and embarrassed enough to want to run away from the spot. 

But you see, I hadn't believed in Jesus. Instead, I had completely been my own master. I had hated the idea of other people thinking that I was weird, so I had been ashamed of Jesus' name. 

"Jesus, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry!" I repented, over and over again. And I accepted Jesus in my heart as my Lord.  

I felt like I could breathe again. Freedom and boldness came to me. And for the first time in my life, there was joy in me as I shared the gospel!